can you feel your heart beat racing... i sure can. when im with him...even hen im not with him, i can feel it racing. he treats me like gold. like im the most important thing ever. like theres no other girl in this world. and we've only been dating for two and a half weeks. he is just.. amazing. i cant believe it there arent guys like him out in this world anymore, yet i somehow managed to find the one that is. i dont understand how i did it. I smile all the time now, i probably look retarded due to it. but i cant help it, he makes me happier than ive ever felt. Hes amazing. he treats me with so much respect tho, which is the best part about him. his parents raised him well. If theres something im not cool with, we dont do it. no complaining from him or anything. Hes wanted to do it since we started dating, but i told him i wanted a relationship, not just a fuck buddy. and he completely understood and agreed, and thus we havent yet. he told me whenever im ready, we shall, and that im worth the wait. hes too damn amazing. i dont know how i got so lucky... i feel so special around him. nothing makes me happier than when im with him. "it's crazy how much i like you already..." "i would, i would do anything for you." he is my angel. i would give this boy the moon and stars if i could, because he treats me so well. I've never been appreciated this much before... he loves the little surprises i always give him, and is always so happy. his friends are just wicked too. his friend jaime told me last weekend that its like im part of the gang already. That i just fit in so well. they are stoekd that i love video games... last weekend while i was sitting there playing halo, drunk, with the 15 guys or so, they spent a half hour complianing how their gfs dont like video games, or that they dont even know what halo is. meanwhile i was beating everybody because im just that wicked. haha they didnt believe me that i had never played before. But i really hadnt. And graham wasnt even in the room, he left to do some poster stuff, so i had sat with the guys and played vids. it was wicked. i cant do that and drink anymore tho, haha i got toooo drunk. Ben tells me he loves me when we say goodbye. Dave has told me that he loves me too. And Jaime said "if you to break up, we're keeping her", lol!! his friends rock my world. but yes, back to graham. he is my angel, he is too amazing and too sweet. i dont know how i managed this. i cant remember the last time i cried. although i could probably look in here and see when it was. crying doesnt even register with me these days, because im always so happy. i have yet to hear anyone say anything bad about him too. He is amazing. my dad loves him, my sis thinks hes cool. the girls in the deli think he sooo hot and that "i did well this time" lol. they are proud of me. and so am i. i want to spoil this kid rotten, because thats how i feel when i hang out with him. he does everything i love, but yet i have NEVER once told him to do any of it. he holds my hand. kisses me hello and goodbye. cuddles with me infront of his friends. caresses my skin and plays with my hair. compliments me all the time. Calls me sweetie, beautiful and hot stuff. he does anything he can to make me smile, because he loves to see me smile. he is amazing. i've never been treated like this before, and its weird. im not used to it. but i will never complain... i am SO HAPPY with him. Thank you andy for pushing him into talking with me. That was one of the best things andys done for me since we broke up. marek asked me to describe graham to him, so i said "think of how many times andy made me cry when we were dating. now times that by 30, and thats how many times grahams made me smile in the two weeks we've been dating." he is my angel, and I could not be happier. but i will be sad in april, when he goes home to dauphin. we were both worried about it. and we still are. I told him that i didnt want to get involved at the beginning, because i didnt know how id manage in a long distance relationship. But the more i hung out with him, the more i realized i found a 1 in a million guy, and i wasnt ready to let go of that. It will suck when he goes home, but we will make it work. every weekend we have off we will try to see each other. i will try to go out there, and vice versa. I dont do long distance things, but he will be back in the end of august. And for three weeks in July im gone. So that leaves only three months really. And last year he said he didnt start at highways till june, which means he had may off. and i dont get too many different hours during may and june, as thats when everyones still in school. so hopefully, hopefully, we can manage. I trust him with my heart, so i know he wont cheat on me. and i clearly would never cheat on him either. It will just suck not getting to see him. So i figure ill buy him a webcam before he goes, so we can still see each other a little bit while hes gone. It may not be in person, but if i can see his face and hear him talk, i will be happy. he is too amazing to let go. and i agree with what he said, its crazy how much i like him already. hes just perfect, i dont know how i managed this. i dont deserve it. ♥♥