you know this songs tells alot....and i feel the same way... i can't change my name but i could be your type i can dance and win at games like backgammon and life i used to be the smart one sharp as a tack funny how that skipping years ahead has held me back i used to be the bright one top in my class funny what they give you when you just learn how to ask i used to be the bright one smart as a whip funny how you slip so far when teachers dont keep track of it i used to be the tight one the perfect fit funny how those compliments can make you feel so full of it can't you do it for me, i'll pay you well [suck] i'll pay you anything if you could end this can't you just fix it for me, it's gone berserk... [suck] i'll give you anything if you can make the [darn] thing work can't you just fix it for me, ill pay you well, [suck] ill pay you anything if you can end this hello, i love you will you tell me your name? hello, i'm good for nothing - will you love me just the same? *sigh* I got sick of Church today... i hardly said a word and we ended our lessons early agian so i went to the car and sat there for a while. You know the saying "if you don't have anything good to say then don't say anything?" well.... what if you don't say anything and people get mad at you anyway? then when you try to explain you just don't know what to say. Yeah done that to often of late. I didn't make it to state... Mrs. Wharton was so confident that we would... then when our number wasn't called...... The School is in first Place currently though... that's a good thing....and if we hadn't competed then the school would've been in third. Yeah... third. But once i saw everyone laughing on the bus. I just got a knot in my chest. I was determined to keep my head high... but i guess the pain showed on my face. Ally asked me if i was okay, she didn't believe my answer but then i wouldn't either. Once i sat down in the back, and i could hear all the cheers... that's when it broke. I started to cry... I got to the point that i was just trying to cry without making a sound. Then Austin came and sat next to me and held me until i stopped a good twenty minutes later. Now i'm going to bust my butt and win the One acts. I'm going to focus on just the play now and we are totally kicking butt.