I might as well be living alone My mother had decided that she would rather not see me day by day because all we do is fight or i ramble on about my day. She says we need to improve our conversations. She hardly wver gets home until quite late and that leave me home for up to five hours, depending on when i go home, and the school is becoming less and less appealing. Thanks to Colby and Jeremy i actually did have some fun today. Playing in the leaves/rain and spinning on the grass. But for Colby's party Emma and Austin were really quite making me mad. They left so that she could tell her mother where she was. Where is her mother that she couldn't call... and they couldn't stay off of each other. I thought it was rude that they weren't paying much attention to the people around them. But then i wonder if when i was still with Austin whether we were that bad. I did enjoy modeling in Art though. Don't ever think that modeling is easy. it's hard to stay in the same position for 8 minutes at a time. things start to cramp or shake Emma made me feel so fat at the party. For some reason we were saying stuff about fat. And while leaning into Austin, Emma claimed to be fat with 24"... at my skinniest i'm 29" my hips are 37" and she thinks she's fat... would that make me huge? I realize that really doesn't make sense... but i didn't feel comfortable about it.