So a while back after she realized counseling wasn't helping me she told me to write in this notebook and tell her how I felt about different people. One of them was Graham..And this is what she wrote back to me. "Part of the reason I am so down is because of you and Graham. I was so happy because I saw the answers to my prayer of 15 yrs in the two of you. Me and many other people saw God at work in the two of you. Satan worked in your mind to make you doubt it and get you to walk away from what would have been a great christian home if the two of you had stayed in God's will." Now, I can understand her more. She's not forcing her opinions on me now, she's just telling me. I read that very carefully, and it is deep, but it still doesn't change my perspective on how I feel towards Graham. There is a lot of stuff that no one knows about that happened. Not even my bestfriends know. And that's why I know my decision is not a mistake. I'm not going back on it. Anyways, this is all I've got for now, I might write later tonight? ♥