So, my mom and I were talking tonight, and I guess I'll just fill you in.. So, ever since I've quit trying to get revenge on Zach for whatever reason, I've kind of missed him again. [Yeah, yeah. I know] I guess, I thought if I could be mean to him that I would forget him faster, and get over him. Like I never cared. But I think that my friends really influenced the way I thought. I remember when we first started going out, I was so happy with him, and I was so proud to name him my boyfriend. But honestly, and I do hate to admit it because I denied it so many times before, but I do think my friends influenced me. They told me he treated me wrong, and that I could do better. I believe and still do, that Tilicia was mad because Zach wasn't giving her anymore attention. Sarah would agree with Tilicia on anything. And what did Maggie know? She's never had a boyfriend. I let them get ahold of my mind and tell me that everything I was okay with, was wrong. And I started to believe them. I even remember that's when I started rethinking myself. I realize now, they never cared about me . It was only them. What did they want? Not me. Sometimes, I wonder, if I hadn't have let them influence me on that, that me and Zach might still be together. I mean, I'm not utterly like depressed that we broke up. I think we both agreed we made the right decision. But next time I get into a relationship, I'm going to make myself happy. Not my friends. It's my life. If I'm okay with whatever is going on in my relationship, then who else matters? Anyways, yo, I cannot wait for the party this weekend. So physched for it. I don't even know if it's my house or Justin's yet. But where ever, I am ready for it dudeee. I'm just hoping this week gets better! I am soo ready for summer. I think about it every singly day. I wanna get outta school so bad. So..anyways.. Ska la la ♥