So! Hi. Today was really good. Actually this week has been good. Jason asked me to help him at a VBS at this other church playing to piano, so I said I would. In going there I kind of thought "I'll be a leader type person and just make sure Jason does really well, and people pay attention to him." Well, I'm getting the total opposite of that. Since I'm a teen, I do what all they do, and I sit in the class and listen to him talk to us too. And it's really been getting me to think. Like, last night the topic was Choose To Believe. And tonight was Choose to Act. And I guess tonight hit home for me. Like, in a crowd with all those people that I don't know, it's really easy for me to put on the I'm a good Christian show. I mean, anywhere I go that I'm around new people I feel that challenge to be the example of Christ for them. But then around the people that I do know I let that slide and I tend to act unChristian. On the way home I actually got to talk to Jason about some stuff and I guess I'm really just trying to gather like what is really important and what really means more. What should I really be doing and things like that. I mean I'm not really sure where to start but Jason was like "Think back to the time you remember being closest to God, and think about what surrounded you." He was saying how I need to like take out all the stuff I've added that's taken away from God. He was like "You can slip up once and it'll take forever to get what you had back". I was like "YES." That's exactly what it feels like. I can remember 2 years ago being closest to God and messing up really crashed my course. I still haven't gotten that back. I've been close to Him, but never as close and real as it was then. Maybe because I was only 13 and it was so easy to believe. But I want it back. And I'm seriously thinking about trying to fix things in my life just so I can not only look the Christian part, but I can really be the Christian I'm supposed to be....This is just been something on my mind. Matt's leaving soon. He's leaving for military school because he got in trouble. Kind of sad, because we need more people in the Explorer's Post! But since we've gotten back from the Academy, Officer Fine and Officer Boak have accumulated at least 5 people who are going to be coming to join. And Robbie brought this guy today. I hope we get more people! We're going to Emerald Pointe August 4. That'll be a lot of fun too. And in October we're going back to Salemburg for Survival Weekend!! Yayyyy. I'm so excited because I know a lot of people that were there for the Academy are gonna be there. Yeah, but I'm fixing to go to bed, so I'll write you laterr! Empty me of the selfishness inside Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride And any foolish thing my heart holds to Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with you. I've seen just enough of the quick buys of the best lies To know how prodigals can be drawn away. I know how I can stray And how fast my heart could change.