Hi! So, today at first it was all sunny and I actually got to lay out. Then I went to the gym and it stormed like crazy before VBS. Yeah, and Jason let me drive his massive truck to the church. I mean, it seriously is massive. I felt like I was hogging the freakin road. But it was fun. I used to want a truck but, nah. I like my small car. [= VBS went good too, but Jason wouldn't let me drive home. Hah, I mean, that figures. So, today me and Sarah got into this deep talk about like dating and stuff. Like, she's so afraid about opening herself up to a guy, it drives me nuts. I mean, I guess everyone is different, but I wish she could just see the way I see things and use that lol. Like, she has problems with talking to people, like she's just scared to put herself out there because she's afraid of getting hurt. I mean, that's understandable, but you can't ever get anywhere if you're too afraid to try something. I guess it's just because I've learned, especially from my last relationship, how to get a back bone and talk to people. I've learned how to put myself out there open to rejection just because I don't want to regret not saying something. She's afraid to tell people how she feels because she doesn't wanna make anyone mad, and I told her it's not about them. It's about her. If she's offended, or hurt, or doesn't agree with something she should just say it. And she's afraid of saying no. I guess it just takes experience to learn how, and she's never had it. But it does get hard to say no, but I've learned how to say it. It just frustrates me when people don't think highly of themselves and they think they aren't good enough for something or they won't try something because of rejection. I know it takes being in certain situations to learn to love yourself and think highly of yourself, but I wish people could learn to love themselves. I think highly of myself, and I love myself, and not in a cocky was or selfish way. But I look at my body and wouldn't change anything about it. Nothing. I look at my life, and I wouldn't go back and change things because I wouldn't be who I am now if they were different. I wouldn't change anything I have or am going through. I promise. I just wish people would stop thinking they are the worst thing ever. I'm not going to sit there and tell you you aren't. You can think what you want of yourself. I'll sit there and tell you "Okay, I'm sorry you feel that way about yourself". Anyways, it frustrates me, but I'm in a really good mood. Not just today, but I'm really enjoying everything. I'm learning so much here lately about everything. I'm almost changing some of my behavior because I want to be a better person to people. Last night, I talked to God until I fell asleep, and I talked to Him about like everything. It was really cool, just like I used to talk to Him. It feels really good to get closer to Him. He's been really awesome, and being at VBS it really amazing. Just to see how some of the teenagers react to Jason's preaching and just Jason in general, it's so encouraging. These teenagers have no direction in their church whatsoever. And you can see this hunger within them, looking for something real to believe in, and Jason is leading them to God in a way that's real and on our level as teenagers. It's so cool. Me and Jason talk about it on the way home about it. I just hope that by the end of the week, God really steps into their lives and shows them hope, and gives them the light at the end of their tunnel. Who knows, maybe some of them will drift over to our church. [; But anyways, I'm glad I said yes to Jason about coming, because it's been sort of eye opening to see them run after Christ like they are. Even through all they've been through. Buuuuuut anyways. [= Until next time... Son of God shaper of the stars You alone; the dweller of my heart Mighty King how beautiful You are... Son of God the Father's gift to us You alone were broken on the alter of love Precious Lamb our freedom's in Your blood Jesus, Oh Holy One I sing to You forgiven Savior, I'm overcome with Your great love for me... You are worthy of all my praise You are beautiful ♥