So, today has been well. It was a half day and the crew hung out after school. Which was fun for the most part. But anyways.
Duuude. I'm so sick of seeing all this lovely dovey stuff. Everywhere I go, everything I see. Talks about love, or I see a cute couple. I'm like aiuehfbf. I haven't liked anyone in a really long time. And I'm like..I dunno. Maybe I miss having that rush in me. In 9 months, I dated 3 different guys, and it almost because like second nature to like someone. And ever since Cliff, I've like taken a long break from even looking. I've gotten very very picky.
Speaking of Cliff...I don't even talk to him anymore. He doesn't talk to me. I haven't seen him since everything happened. He completely disappeared. He got an apartment, moved out, doesn't talk to Taylor and them much at all. Never comes to church. I dunno even what he's doing. I wish I did though. I miss him being around. /:
But anyways. So, it's like 30 some more days until my secret (: Yeah, you know I wanna follow through with this so bad, you don't even know. But I'm so afraid it's gonna be harder, and I'm not going to be what I want there. I might not fit in.. /: That would suck. I dunno. I debating it. A lot.
I have the rest of this week off from school. I'm painting. Painting my room atleast. I'm really excited too. Tilicia's coming over Friday to spend the night and help me paint maybe. Sarah might come over tomorrow, but I'm not sure. It'd be fun if it all worked out.
Ooooh, but anyways, I'm tired. I'm ready to fall into bed (:
Goodnight (: