I think maybe I should write an entry ... just to let people know I'm still alive. Just barely, though, I think. I don't know. I still feel like shit ... but I think I'm getting better. Have another doctor's appointment on Monday. I don't know how I'm going to afford all of these visits. I know I'm sick; I know I need them - but I can't keep on affording all of these visits without a steady job. "Hold my breath as I wish for dead; Oh please, God, wake me." I'm home alone today, so ... I think I'll spend a majority of this day just sleeping ... I might take a hot bath or something ... might make me feel better. Sorry that there's nothing really thought-provoking and intelligent-sounding in my journal today. Not feeling up to it. Like I said, this is just an entry to let you know that I'm not dead yet ... Later days.