Rooney ... they remind me of the Beatles meets Beach Boys meets ... metal. I kind of like them ... for some reason they remind me of being 12 and 13 and ... just being happy. I miss my lovely ... she's gone off for a while without really giving me any reason why ... I'm guessing that she probably checked herself into a hospital, like she'd been talking about doing for a while ... because I got a message saying she'd be gone for a while and not to worry, that she's all right - when she knows I worry about everything ... I finally got her letters the other day! Two letters from my lovely lovely! I've read them and re-read them and even started writing my own letter to her tonight ... and ... I'm going to go ahead and send her the birthday gift I got for her ... because by the time she got it, I think it would be her birthday. It's wonderful stuff too! But I won't tell you what it is, just in case she reads this - I want her to be surprised and happy. I know she doesn't like to make a big deal out of birthdays, but ... it will be her 21st and I thought she deserved something special. So ... yesterday I went to MyAnza ... yes, one of my favorite places (the new age gift shop where I usually find a majority of my ritual and meditation supplies). Why did I go? Well ... why did I go the last time? Because I needed a wand. And what did I discover? That it looked almost exactly like a shop I'd dreamed about. And I found a stone and a pendant there, and it proved to be a far more beneficial trip than I'd thought. Why did I go this time? Because I had another dream ... and this dream had a stone in it ... a heavy ring made out of a special blue-white-cat's eye like stone ... so I went there, not only to get my lovely's birthday gift, but also to find out if they had a stone like that in stock. No, they didn't ... but Molly (one of the new girls who works there) helped me find out what it was. Sodalite. The dream that held this stone ring involved my mother - not my REAL mother, but my dream mother - and me going back in time to see what she was like ... and it was her ring, and she wanted me to have it. We looked this up, and I looked it up later online, and I found several interesting finds! Most people who know me know that I have a problem with insulin production - it's not exactly diabetes, but ... it's a problem with that. I've seen many an endochrinologist as well ... "But Seth! Those doctors are for girls!" Actually, no ... they're for everyone. Girls need to understand that guys can sometimes have their problems, too. I'm also very tired a lot ... and have headaches and feel nauseated when my nerves are acting up ... I'm a very stressed guy, and the fact that I have that nerves to stomach problem is one of the reasons why I don't eat as much as I should ... because I fear that I wouldn't be able to keep any of it down due to the nausea. Anyway, this is what I found on Sodalite: Sometimes referred to as the stone of endurance, this stone helps one to be grounded and focused before beginning any task. It assists one in following through to completion with ease. ((I so need something like this - lately, I've been procrastinating on starting things and often find it difficult to finish things)) Physical: Strengthens the thyroid gland and assists the body in efficient metabolism. It has been used to treat nervous stomach. Emotional Assists one in allowing for forthright communication of feelings tempered with compassion for the recipient's reaction. It opens one to support and self-esteem building situations while promoting a sense of opennes and self confidence in one's choices. Influences of Sodalite On a psychological level improving emotional balance and diminishing strong emotions is assisted by Sodalite. On a physical level Sodalite has a positive influence on the glands, especially the pancreas, stimulating the insulin production. Through its activation of the hypothalamus it reinforces the endocrine system. Chakra: Brow. ALSO! Sodalite stone healing power: General communication and writing stone. Logic, ideas and truth. Balances body energy levels via thyroid, pituitary, lymph, and other glands. Helps throat chakra, insomnia, neck, mouth, hearing, blood sugar, etc. Cooling and drawing for infections, burns, sinus inflammations, high blood pressure, etc. I think I might have found the stone that is for me. I have two now ... Hematite and Sodalite. ... who knew? Who said that dreams aren't trying to tell you something? Anyway ... That being aside ... I just have to ask - Do any of you understand at ALL just how difficult it is to look good and sexy in a hairnet? Yeah ... it's pretty tough. My paycheck sucked. I made over $250 and I'm only getting $140 of it because of taxes, goddamnit. I better get a shitload of tax returns this spring or I'm suing. Grr, I say ... Grr fucking ARGH. I think that maybe this Sodalite will do me a lot of good, once I actually order some. Because, you know, MyAnza didn't have any at the time. I might order from www.mineralstones.com ... because, believe it or not, it's actually cheaper to order it from that site then to go to MyAnza. But I want a ring made out of it ... or a necklace or something ... something besides powerbeads and eggs, you know? I want actual jewelry that I can wear all day and all night long ... I guess I'm just picky. And very particular about money. I'll be looking at other places online to see if I can find Sodalite jewelry. If anyone out there knows of a good site where I can get some, please leave me a note? Much obliged. Yeah ... I'm a gemstone junkie. Hey! That sounds like a good idea for a song. A parody of "Rhinestone Cowboy" or something. Heh. Man, I really need sleep. For those of you who don't know ... I'm Wiccan. And Stones are what I focus on mainly. I feel most comfortable with gemstones and their properties and, yes, I'm still learning about them, which is the whole researching of Sodalite and all. It takes a while to just get down the basics of Wicca, and then to specialize in one area takes a bit more time. Behold, the power of stones. Samhain is coming up. I'm excited. We're holding the Rocky Horror Picture Show that night! So it's a dress-up, party, ritual and worship night for me! I'm so excited! EXCITED! I think I'm going to go now ... and work on my math journals ... that were do ages ago. See? I need some Sodalite now, to help me get rid of this goddamned procrastination bug I have. Anyway ... I love the Lindsay. And ... Blessed be, everyone. Know what I go through every single day ...