Sugarcoating

by quietseth
Listening to: Brave Elephant - Awry
Feeling: crappy
I've come to the conclusion that I'm just too nice of a guy. And that hurts people. Because I'm so nice, and so afraid of hurting people, I fucking sugarcoat everything to make the negative truth sound less painful ... But when I actually just can't take it anymore, and just tell someone who's used to the sugarcoating the truth without "nice-ifying" it, they get pissed off and treat me like shit ... Me, who listened to them bitch and moan, and have done everything I could POSSIBLY do to make matters better for them - and they treat me like shit just for giving them the outright truth without buttering it up. Said I was mean. This is what happened. See, I have a lot of online buddies, and a lot of times, I have 8 to 12 IM's going at once, and I'm unable to devote my full attention to one window. And the girl I speak to, she thinks I don't want to be her friend anymore because I "never talk to her" about anything anymore - because I have all of these "other friends that are far more interesting" than her. Which is NOT true - So I tell her, that she's not the only person who strives for my attention online - but she leaves me with a message saying "Goodnight. Have fun socializing with your buddies" and then signs off. *sigh* What am I supposed to do? I'm just too nice. Because I'm too nice, when I actually say something bluntly to someone, and tell them how things are, people call me mean and crude and say that I'm fake. I just want everyone to be happy ... is that so wrong? I just don't know what to do. I'd give up, I kind of want to give up, but I don't really ... want to ... I'm afraid of how people will react to the no-longer-sugarcoating Seth. Would they hate me? Will they embrace me? I'm just afraid ... What do I do? I don't know what to do? I'm usually a polite person, kind and gentle and timid ... passive beyond belief, really. But what do I do? How can I make people see that I'm not being mean, that I'm just being honest, that I don't mean any harm ... I want to give up, but I don't ... so what do I do? What do I do? Someone?
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I know that feeling surely I do. I've come to terms that if no one likes me for who I am I can't really call them friends now can I? Well just to let you know whoever you turn out to be, I'll still like, if that means anything at all. Take care.
*hugs* you're a nice person and that's why I like you. And that person shouldn't act so... bitchy just because you don't talk to her or whatever.. You're 1 person with other people that likes you... If those other people hate you, let them. They're just being immature bitches. Sorry for my language, i'm not in a good mood myself :/
[Anonymous]
I used to have the same problem as you..But after the years, I don't seem to have that problem as much anymore. Then again, most of the people who were my friends a year ago, refuse to speak to me. Because of some stupid shitty reasons. I've got some real good friends that talk to me still and I'm glad for them. If they read this they know who they are.
[Anonymous]
if this person is any type of friend then u being mean/nice or honset/dishonest (although u don't seem to be the type to lie) wont matter to them.
the truth hurts sometimes but ultimately worth hearing.

if the person you tell it to doesnt accept it, then move on; youre a great person and deserve only the best.

dont self-deprecate either. cos youre wondrous.

ive told you that. but im saying it again.

also.

i finished your picture. i have to tell you about it. [= its a funny story,

<3loves,
Thanks Seth :) I know I should talk to him about it.. but I guess I'm scared I'll say something wrong again if I talk to him. I'm such a coward.
[Anonymous]
love your anime header picture. is it urs? nonetheless awesome.

xox-
[Anonymous]
You and I seem to have a lot in common. I find myself being walked on too by my peers just because I'm always such a nice person. When people try to take advantage of me, I just end up ignoring them. You seem like a really nice guy. You shouldn't give that up because that's how you are and you should never try to change who you are.