I am really truly hating life right now. Everything is going wrong. What set me off? My computer just erased all of the music I had on my iPod. I swear to fucking god....I am soooooo mad...you have no idea. I could kill. It took me sooo long to put all of those fucking songs on there...and some were from CDs that weren't even mine..they were borrowed. Oh...my...GOD... So that's going to take hours and hours to fix. And I won't even get all the music back. Fuck computers...fuck them. And last night Theron and Karlyna and Melissa wanted to come get me to hang out BUT I can't do anything this weekend since I had fucking Saturday School yesterday. And because I didn't do the dishes...wtf...I did them...fucking bitch. But he actually wanted to do something with me and I really wanted to see him but I couldn't. I'm stuck in this fucking prison piece of shit.....grr... Monday is my last day at Saugus I think. They have an opening at Bowman. And I'm next. So no more Saugus. Or my friends. Or Theron. Or anything. I'm going to be with all the other fuck-ups. And now I won't be able to see Theron every day. I hope this doesn't really affect our relationship...if you could call it a relationship even. Dear god why must everything be so screwed up...what did I do... And during all this my stupid whore of a mother is out with her rich boyfriend having a GRAND time while my brother and I are stuck at home and she doesn't even come home at night because she's busy being the cunt that she is.......... I need to sleep. Or something. Anything. But I can't get away from my mind...so I'm trapped. Fuck.