I got new jeans! :oD £12 from Primark, the king/queen/ruler (mustn't be sexist) of all shops. I'm impressed by myself. Ermmm other that that, I feel like shit really. I can't stop thinking about Alex and it's driving me insane. I don't even know him for fucks sake. This stops now, while I sort other stuff out. I just ran a block chek on Joe. I've been meaning to do it for ages, and I don't know why but it really upset me that he blocked me. I knew that he had anyway, so why did I have to get so rattled? Well anyway I've decided I've come to the end of my teather and so I'm sending him this: "Joe, This is Lucy, by the way. I got Tommy to send this off his account (Tommy's old account which he gave me the password for to annoy people) because I know you've blocked my address. I've got a block checker. I don't know how long you intend for this silent treatment to go on for, but I'm telling you now if it was intended to make me feel like shit for something I have/haven't done then well done because it's worked. I'd just appreciate it if you either stopped doing it and talked to me, or at least tell me what the fuck it is I've done wrong so I can sort it out. It's not clever, it doesn't take much to make me feel like shit, in fact it's really immature and it's making things really awkward. It's making me not want to actually be at college when you're there. I've no problem if you just don't feel comfortable talking to me, just please tell me what it is that's changed from "I'd rather die than see you around college and not be talking to you" to "I'd rather die than talk to you when I see you around college". It doesn't really make any sense to me, because before we came back after the Christmas holidays it was fine. I'd just like some answers please. I've got enough bothering me at the moment without my ex boyfriend being a dickhead as well. Lucy x" Meh, I need a break from men.