Today mom and I went to get my stereo out of my car along with miscellaneous other things in the glove box and console. As we're driving home she tells me that I'm grounded...no friends over, no going anywhere, no getting rides (I have to ride the bus or walk) anywhere, no anything for like the whole summer. I don't get another car, because they won't buy one for me - even if I give them the money (Minors can't buy cars w/o parental permission) because I don't deserve one. So sorry guys, no weekend stuff for months. I can call you and IM you because she didn't say I couldn't, and I would anyways. But if anyone drives me around she's adding another 2 weeks to my punishment. She says wherever I work I'll have to ride my bike - which is bull shit if I work in Cottage Grove, that's like 10 miles in the BFE. So yeah, as soon as school's out I'm not going to get to see anyone I know unless it's on accident, although I told mom I was going to people's grad parties, I mean, it's the last fucking time I'll see them before college, so she and dad can kiss my ass. The whole entire thing is so I realize how close I came to killing myself. Yeah, I know, I cried all last night about it, and when I think about it I start to. I know that, and I guess I don't see how the fuck isolating me from the world will really help. If I didn't want to realize it before, this wouldn't help at all - but I do and they don't believe me. I hate them, they think this is all my fault, and while I'll take the blame for my part, it is in no way ENTIRELY my fault. Maybe if she hadn't been speeding at like 80 MPH over that hill she wouldn't have hit us. All I know is that both Rachel and I looked both ways and made sure there was no one coming before we went. But you know what? I just don't give a fuck. What can they do to me for disobeying their orders....ground me again? Because it worked so well in the first place. I told my mom I'd rather move out and she was like well where would you go then? I have no idea, Tom and Adam live by themselves...they do it on very little money I'm sure. Quite frankly, I wouldn't care where I went, as long as I was there on my own, without my parents. For those of you who have good relationships with your parents, good job (no sarcasm there). Seriously. My dad and I fight at least once a day, over the stupidest things. All I know is that I'm quite ready to say fuck you and leave - go stay with other family if I have to, I think Char would let me stay, at least for awhile. I doubt I'd really run away, I have no car - but I will probably do everything else...I have a cell phone and most people are willing to give me rides home for gas money, so hey, why not just continue being grounded until I'm 18, it's only 9 months away. I cannot wait. I will be buying myself a car, getting a tattoo, piercing my ears, and leaving home. Right now all I can do is refuse to be in the same room with them. It's easy, I never was anyways except for eating, and I'll eat at school. Sorry about Tae-Bo Rachel, I'm not allowed to have you over for it, I'll bring your tapes back tomorrow so you and Carla can do it. Talk to you online, and at school tomorrow. Later.