I need to get away, when's that trip to Alaska, Rach? I'm so stressed and yet not, I'm just worn out from everything. Exams are ok, I think, I have to take APE, but so does everyone, I just need to get my notes together, re-read the stories, and get some answers for the 3 essays I have to write. Chem 2 I have to take a test, but not an exam, just chapter 19, but since I have a ski meet tomorrow I'll probably have to come in Thursday. I want to drop the class, and be an aide instead, I have to check with the teacher, but it should work. I have a lab report due tomorrow that I only have 5 out of like 20 questions answered because I don't understand it and when Sam got on we got into a "discussion" and I didn't ask for help. There's another thing, I'm pretty sure she's pissed at me, for not liking Steve (which I do, occasionally, does she not see how he acts though??), and for drawing away from her, which I didn't know I was doing, but I don't mean to. I don't know what is going on in my life anymore. Ski team sucks, no one can race cept for J.Frank, and she bothers me with how she pretends to be teh coach when Matt's not around...granted, she's captain, but still, it's unnecessary. I fell today at practice, slammed my jaw on the snow, it kinda hurts now, great. I couldn't even do our easy course (comes from skipping it a year), and Keely and I just gave up after sliding and screwign up and sat in teh snow at the bottom of the hill for like 10 minutes, both of us trying not to cry. We talked the whole way home about random crap, it was great, a lovely venting session. Went tanning, came home to you know dinner and all that, nope. My parents and Megan sate w/o me and put everything away, and as it was Chinese food, I didn't want to microwave it, it's never as good to me. So I made a salad while my mom bitched at me for having a bad day and complaining about it, her having to make food for the meet tomorrow (*I* didn't volunteer her, Jessica's mom called and asked), me dropping Chem 2, and various shit while my dad sat in teh living room and periodically yelled "what's your problem?" "don't be a bitch" or my favorite "don't come home in a cranky mood" because it's not like he doesn't and then take it out on us when we're not perfect. I love my fucking family, I can't wait to leave. I still have to go find all my shit for the meet tomorrow, and borrow some of Megan's underarmour, which she threw a bitchfit over since "why do [I] need it, [I] have my own?!?!" Ummm, duh, I'm going to be outside from probably 12-7 if not longer, and in fucking spandex, I need tight clothes to wear underneath so the speed suit fits, which I've told her, but whatever, she's asleep, I'll just take it. I just want to cry, but don't, because I don't think there's anything really to cry about. I need a hug hahaha. I'm done now, I'd go to bed, but I'm supposed to wait for someone on MSN, so I'll do that for awhile, plus, I don't want to, I'm not tired at all. Later.