Okay, they need to have spaces for more than one mood on here, because I am many tonight/this morning. I am pissed, confused, hopeful, happy, bored, hyper, and sad all at once. I may explode at any given moment lol. I'll just tell about my weekend so far and you should see why. Friday was great, I went to TC, got my braces off and this little retainer put in. It's a tiny white strip that holds my teeth in place by being glued to the back of them, which is awesome, I can't forget it and you can't see it. I didn't get to go anywhere other than Borders and Steve & Barrys because my mom had to go back home to go to a viewing. My dad's lead carpenter, the guy I've known to work for my dad since before I was born, died Monday. He had a massive, sudden heart attack and didn't wake up even with the guys doing CPR and taking him to the hospital. It's really reminded me on how....I don't know, he was the same age as my dad; it could have happened to him. Let's not dwell on that. Friday night was great, Cat had her first movie night. :) Steve and Alex and Sam and I went; we watched Eurotrip and Without A Paddle, both I've seen and both were good lol. However, I didn't get to see the end of W.A.P. because Alex started kissing me instead. I had already been lying on him since he took my pillow, I used him as one, and he turned his head to look at me for some reason lol, and that put our faces really close together and he just kissed me. A lot. =D No one else noticed lol, since I had to tell Sam and Cat after they left, and I don't think Sam told Steve, which is just as good. So tonight I asked him what it meant, and he said he didn't know, he'd been thinking and hadn't reached a conclusion...as long as we're at least friends, I don't care, and we are, so I'd be happy, if somewhat disappointed if he just said it was a 1-time thing. But I know him, and I know he doesn't do stuff like that. Oh well, I'll just wait till he calls tomorrow lol, like he's supposed to...or see him Monday, whichever. He had better have my $15 too! Today Steve, Sam, Jake, Amanda, Mindy, Alex and I went to Midland to shop and stuff, because Steve had to take back video games or something so we made a day of it. Everyone left cept me because I was waiting for a hour and a half till ALex got out of work. He came to Steve's and we picked up Mindy and left. Met everyone in the mall and went shopping. I bought a new pair of pants, awesome pin-striped ones, and a Taking Back Sunday shirt, a pin-striped fedora, and Alex's Taking Back Sunday shirt, because he didn't have enough money, hence the oweing me $15. It's great, I'm wearing it all on Monday. I wore the hat all night lol, I wish we were allowed to wear them in school. We went to see a movie, but it ended up sucking major balls. Steve didn't ask us all if we agreed, just hte ppl in his car, so we ended up seeing Saw II, because they wanted to and it started at 7:40, so by the time we got there everything else had started. I don't think I *watched* more than 5 minutes. It's fucking disgusting, there's no point ina movie like that. I hate Steve for not asking if we ALL wanted to see it before he assumed and told us to be there later. If we'd gotten there at 7:00 we could have seen something else. But for me, it wasn't just a nauseating horror movie, there's a second part of it. For the people who've seen it, or even not, the guy with cancer, on the respirator, talking about how much pain he's in? Yeah, he looks, acts, and sounds, like my gramma did when she died, and if the pain was true, I don't even want to know. My gramma was an amazingly strong woman to never say anything about it. So Alex was sitting nect to me and we agreed that neither of us wanted to be there, so we left, about 45 min into it. Biggest waste of 45 minutes I'll never get back, plus $6. As we were walking out I started shaking, like my whole body, and silently crying, because of the whole cancer thing, since it happened what, 2 months ago. We went out to my car and just sat and listened to music. We talked a bit, he wanted to know was I ok, etc. I ended up just telling him the whole thing, stuff I haven't told anyone about the way I felt, and eventually stopped crying. Then he made fun of me because my eyeliner ran and I looked like a raccoon lol. Jake and Amanda joined my car for the ride home, they said it was more fun and better music and more comfy seats lol. We stopped at a rest area 30 min from Midland and Jake and I switched seats so he could drive home. My hands were still shaking and it was raining really hard, I just wasn't able to drive. Jake is the only person, aside from my mom, who has driven my car...I must trust him a lot lol. Anyways, we got back to Steve's and watched part of a Ron White DVD before we had to leave. It was still pouring lol, and that's where I asked Alex what was going on and he said the thinking thing, and that he'd call me because we were both cold and wet and had to leave to make curfew. Shoulda kissed him Sammy, lol. It's our fantasy, to kiss/be kissed in the pouring rain, although when I think of it, I picture summer, not cold lol, huh Sam. Hahaha, oh well, maybe it'll be raining next time, and if not, a kiss is still a kiss. ;) Not worht it to confuse everyone more. So yeah, tomorrow...no today lol...I'm going to go work on my sleigh...I have to paint in the corner design and the flower on the center pieces. I can't wait, they will look beautimous. I should go to bed, but I'm not tired. So I think I'll go read, since no ones on for me to talk to. Night Night!