WOW, BRANDI, i love the song, really i do. i just got back from new hampshire yesterday, had a fight with paige, same old same. but wow, im so happy. are you forgiving me? i hope you are, even a little. i love you, all of you people who are behind me helping me push the car up the hill of life. ive been in touch with barry, he might come over soon, yipeee!!!! i miss him. i emailed nate, telling him im considering not running away. but me sister and kiven are being horrible to me, i hate it, seriosly.im sooo happy!!! for like every reason!!! vicki, brandi, barry, every one i feel so complete. i think they have enough left to forgive me even if we dont stay freinds. i think what she put on her site is a good sign. I still love vicki. i still cant get my head around her. i kiss her so much, i need her here with me and not you know where. i hope i see her soon, when school starts. when i do, in giving her the biggest hug and kiss, its hell with out her. its funny i had to lose her to really know my true feelings for her.weird huh? its amazing, love, it feels great!!!! everything is amazing today, i feel high and excited, and like ive never felt for a while!!!!