Wow how time flies. I just stumbled on this for the first time since 12th grade. What a shock. I can't believe I was such a messed up teenager. I did a lot of dumb shit, and I was not kind to myself. I hated me. But I'm glad to say that is all in the past.

im 31 years old now. I have two children, ten and six, girl and boy. They are the light of my life but also extremely exhausting. I have a wonderful fiancé who lives out of state for work right now. I'm hoping to move soon to be with him. But there's a lot of huddles keeping me here. Hopefully it will all be settled soon. I have for the most part, over come all my suicidal tendencies and stopped hurting myself like six or so years ago. I'm happy with who I have grown to become. I'm strong. I'm independent. I have my issues but I'm pretty kick ass honestly. I just wanna say for anyone who felt the way I did growing up, it rlly truly gets better. All you gotta do is survive. Keep breathing and survive....... thank you so much for reading and putting up with my bullshit for those years. I enjoyed having a place to vent.