**by the way im feel suicidal, its not on the list** IM SO STUPID!!! how could i have liked that asshole trevor for so long with out knowing hes a huge asshole!!!! he blew me off yesterday to do drugs with zach, came to the battle of the bands sooo high, he didnt even remember my fuckin name!!!! what a loser!!! i dumped his ass. i hurt me more than it hurt him, see i really liked him and i wanted for so long to have him. i worked hard to deserve him, the one I WANTED, that dont happen often, but he didnt deserve me at all.i hope he gets butt raped, i think he is kinda not strait. anyhow, i made out with a guy named sean, im ashamed. i said i wouldnt do that anymore!!!! i guess am i just a stupid slut like everyone says. logan seemed agrivated that i didnt pick him like the plan was, but he maed out with some chick too.