OK, so im online with chris right now!!!! i called him, he seems so awesome. we talked for ever!!! he wont tell me if he likes me though, he says he gonna keep it a secret, so i think he does. i dont even want him like that, i just enjoy talking to him. The book im reading is getting really good, im in chapter 23 or 24, i forget. its about conrad, a boy who tried to off himself like i did. he was hospitalized and shit. its really good. Anthony was here today. i gave him a ton of hugs. i fucked him in my dream last night. anyway, he wants to hookup and fuck. he emailed me this morning. i dont really trust him though but it never hurt to flirt with a guy. well i got to go. just look at me now, im a fake!!!