How do you feel kawaii? I'm going to find that out. Anyways. Today was interesting. I wrote lots of Christmas letters. Teresa, how many stamps do I need to send you a letter? Gah...I'll do this later. I don't feel very well. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 9:09 PM I feel so guilty whenever I think of it. I really dislike myself for it. I'm so foolish. I've been sitting here reading journals and squeezing my left calf. I left pinkish finger prints. And then I was flexing and running my finger along the indention in my leg and such. I noticed I need to shave. *sigh* Today I hid out in my closet for a wee bit. And I was laying there and I saw my homecoming dress so I pulled it out and put it on. That's the third time I put it on this week. Before this week I hadn't put it on since Homecoming. I can't help thinking... What would have happened if I had been in Logan during Homecoming. At that point in time I had 2, possibly 3, guys express an intrest in taking me to Homecoming. My mom would have let me go. My mom is awesome and would have caved eventually. But yes...I really do wonder. Instead I went to Springfield's Homecoming, in a pink and black dress I bought the day of. And I listened to Usher(crap) and Outkast(more crap)(though Teresa*and prolly Liz and Chambers* argue OUTKAST IS NOT CRAP!!!) for 3 hours, danced with a few guys, talked to Aly and Josh, and went home. It really wasn't all that great. Has anyone else had a crappy Homecoming experience, because I dunno, I think I now have a giant fear of going to another Homecoming dance without a date or a large group of friends. I'm going to stop now. Mm...I'm sorry. I really am. Best summer of my life