8:22 PM It pisses me off when people push away the one thing that I used to want so badly. They don't even realize that it's worth it. Take a chance. Risk something. You can't stay in a little box your entire life. An arguement with Liz. I think she needs to take a chance with him. We got in enough fights over him while I liked him, that she should be happy that she has him now, and give it a try. You got what you wanted all along, so do something about it. I really am cool with them liking each other. I like who she makes him. He makes him a different person. Or maybe it is track. Who knows. But I am not cool with her blowing him off because she's afraid of getting hurt. Sometimes you have to take risks in life. Today is your turn. He doesn't doesn't doesn't care if I stay or go home. =/ It does hurt...I'll admit that. I want him to care. She means the world to him and I mean absolutely nothing to him, as long as we are on good terms. long conversations... take my hand, tell me it will be okay because i'll believe anything you say you can make it all go away you say it best i trust in you so much so incredibly much. can't you hear me screaming this at you? you don't even realize it the way you touch me everytime you say something how good you can make me feel you could shatter my heart and put it back together so give me a real hug kiss my cheek and say your goodbyes but i'll be thinking of you always and forever always and for.ever. So take a chance, give up your little security blanket. I love you. Take a chance with what I can never have again. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ 9:06 PM Our 'fights' make me laugh because they never last more than an hour. w00t