5:53 PM You know...my reactions are really strong. I need to learn to keep my emotions under control. But I failed again. I manage to make things escalate to such a giant mess. You're perfect. Do I need to spell it out for you? And I'm sick of waiting around Waiting for you to come back and say sorry I'm stuck in place Moving back is impossible And going on without you seems even worse then now I wish you would be my friend again I Love you will always be a phrase I want to cry at Just because of that Even though you were kidding It got out of hand. I'm not asking for an apology. Not really. I just wish you would help me up And hug me so I know we're still friends. I don't know what to say to you. Life wouldn't be the same without you. You mean a lot and you've taught me a lot in the past 10 months. I hope you realize what you mean to me and I wish we could get along for five minutes, but somehow we seem to be getting worse and worse. I wish you would just trust me when I said I was sorry. Don't leave me here...please don't. I'm not okay, I promise.