3:08 PM I'm suck a FREAKING SUCKER. Last night Matt told me I was perfect. *sigh* *lots of jumbled words* What do you say to that? All I could think was 'I'm anything but perfect, but that's really sweet of him to say...' Wait! No!! I WILL NOT be a sucker. I will not fall for him. Ahh gosh...I'm probably too late. I'm such, such, such a freaking SUCKER. Someone shoot me now. I stayed up till 3 last night thinking about the heated conversation me and Liz had. And wrote poetry. And thought some more. I don't know how I feel anymore. I'm so overwhelmed with emotions right now. I feel like I'm freaking drowning in them. I just want to go to sleep right now. I'm tired and my head hurts. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6:04 PM This hurts. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6:21 PM I need someone to give me a hug and tell me it's okay. Where are you when I need you Alex?? ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 7:05 PM I'm done. I'm not going to cry anymore. I have to move on. It could have been worse. He could have been scared and hated me. At least we're still friends. At least I can say I've had my heart broken. I called Whit. And she cried with me. We had one of those silent phone calls. We just sat and cried. We've only had one of those before...when her mom died. That was so sad. I cried so hard. Hmmm...I miss my Whitney. But I'm okay now. I need to talk to some more people. But I'm okay. There will always be those days when you used to *kiss my forehead* and tell me I was pretty. I'll never forget you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 7:15 PM There's a blank spot on my bulletin board now...hm.