Got my Tarot Cards read last night. And I swear, this girl made me want to cry. She did the cards and was like "OK, who is in prison, jail, or court?" My heart sank. I was like "woah" And then she said that if I stay with him I will never be happy or stable. She saw a lot of strife in my life. If I leave, I will be over him by December and not even think of him ON HIS BIRTHDAY! And will be much happier if I could just get past this hard time. well then......... "Don't nobody know my troubles but God" I wish I could write in here what I REALLY feel. AND ABOUT EVERYTHING. But I can't. Mamma always said "If you can't say nothing nice...." But then what is the point of having a diary? Or anything? Something to do when I am bored???? I dunno. Searching for: happiness. I wonder if GOOGLE can help me find it. probably not. B