alrite i know you'll read this, not everything happened as i had thought, apologies for the misunderstanding. currently, i still DO NOT like nikki, im just starting to realize i dont have to put up with her bullshit, shes a jerk. and i dont need her to have a life. i dont even care wat she thinks about me. i dont. her being gone, hasnt really struck me as a bad thing...yet....maybe it will......but it hasnt yet. if i hadnt read wat i just wrote i wudnt even be thinking about this right now. ew there are ants all over my desk ew ew ew. i HATE ants and spiders and snails and moths. bleh anyhow, yesterday was lame, i had to go with my mom to some stupid pool party thing, i was gonna go hang out with dustin, but instead, i had to go to this, so i hopefully will go hang out with him todya. i dont know. anyways, my sister is being way nicer, i dont think she cud have called me a whore enough times. she s like i didnt mean it, haha my ass. anyways shes making sense now, now that shes not so pissed off. shes also being cooler. thursday ws so lame...my sister had nikki over for 5 hours at my house. and i was like ok staying in my room. i sewed for 5 hours. that wast the bad part but shes jsut so fucking lame. i was thinking about starting a band, im serious, matt says i shud get the initiative to do it. ive been playing for 2 years, i cud work at it, like punk, i wud have so much fun. the only reason i havent started is beacuase i need to find some girls who love the music and can play. i dontknow yet. anyways i gotta go take ashower just incase i am doing anything today