this pretty much is really upsetting. i always thought we cud get thru everything. things arent always as they seem then. me and matt, i think we broke up. i mean im pretty sure if u get into a fite the nite b4, and i say that things arent the same, then the next day i get no call. i think that was it. 2 months, longest ive ever gone. i feel so crushed,i know i was going to b.c things WERENt the same, but i cant help but feel sad. he was the only guy i really ever loved so much. man its so lame, i dont know tho. he always said he cudnt live with out me he wud commit suicide if i left him...that we were going to get married, and the first time we got into a fite he said he wud never break up with me, he cudnt. now i guess im not that important, hah... i feel so like unwanted. for some reason...but i really really do miss him. i know im going to get over it. i dont want to be with him anylonger, doesnt mean i cant miss him. b/c i do. like crazy. i'll just have to get over it.