deprived, deprived of fun... hahah well actually today i went to the mall, like i always do, and yea so me and nikki went together with everyone...and yea it was really fun. like yea i duno i just love those kids more then my sister..haha well actually thats not hard...i shudnt be sayin that but watever. nehow...my mom didnt kno but around 5:30 we went to glenns. and such...just with me nikki greg lauren KC nick and this kid jon...haha yea and then me and nikki bolted back to the mall so my mom cud pick us up...she just ugh...i think she wudda let me stay longer if she wasnt so pissed at me...but watever its ok i had fun at the mall...u guys rock... and NIKKI IM SORRY I DIDNT MOON THE PEOPLE WITH U! nick was right...we talked about it to much b4 we did it...hahaha damn im such a pussy... ALSO i gotta sew my jeans...hahaha the question is...shud i sew them normally or like skin tight..? i'll prolly sew em skin tight...so yep fuk yea, im all pissed, i really wanna go to the cheap sex show...and i fukin donno if i can. damn i have a bad head...like at my skool i feel like such a fukin...wats the word. i duno everyone at my skool thinks im a fukin narcotic, aNNND me and nikki both feel like fukin whores...hahah i hate my skool...but yea me and nikki do have pretty messed up heads...hahahah ok w.e o well...... "u stay classy ventura" later lovers alyssa PS!!!! i was looking thru my old diary today, hahahha omfG!!!!!! shit ass! hahaha i went from not liking music with cussing, loving a God then i started hating things, turned emo basically, then went into punk and quit my old diary hahahhhahaha JESUS FUK THATTS FUNNY! LMAO i mean look at this may 3rd, 2004 i dant know what i what anymore, i was covered up by my peers, so much that i dont remember myself, how it all used to be... i have no certain train of thought, and i dont know what i want anymore.** LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO iwas such a fuker... hahahah.... hey leave me lots of comments........like lots...just for the fuck of it....