It seems like ever since I set out on my own, to make my own life, to become my own person, that all I've seen is adversity. But the adversity that I'm facing with every passing moment lets me see who I really am inside. It shows me what I'm made of, all of my strengths and weaknesses. I've found that by nature I am a truely social creature, at the moment I consider that to be a weakness because I am capable of such volatile things as love and friendship and I had to leave everything that brought me those joys behind as I took up my new life. I found that when faced with my weaknesses I cowed like a whimpering child because I refused to see my own mortality, my own humanity. But with all these things I have found that I better understand myself, better know who I am, what I am capable of, and I have found my limitations, and am slowly learning to work within those limitations. I don't think I have yet found happiness, I don't rightly enjoy my life at the moment. But I am content with the direction things are turning, and I think with a little time, I'll be able to smile again and find that happiness that I have so desperately sought. :-)