Today I'm feeling oddly... content. I feel like if I had to live today over and over again for the rest of eternity it wouldn't be that bad. There are a few things that I would like to change that might even make me feel *gasp* happy. But those things will never happen because that emotion isn't possible in my life, fate hates me too much. Sometimes i wish i knew why my feelings were so complex. Sometimes i wish i could just figure out how they work and make them work for me in stead of picking me up at their very whim and tossing me about like the wind does to a fallen leaf. But for now, I'll enjoy my high, and maybe, just maybe, tomorrow will hold that something better that I've been waiting so long for.