I've found the reason for wanting death, and my reason to live. Forbidden emotions dwell at the back of my heart looking to be let free, to be satisfied, to destroy everything I have and know. There is a forbidden love that lives within me for a fallen angel whose ears my cries fall silently upon for she is so far away and so far removed. I know she returns my feelings, but she also returns my fears and inhibitions so our love can never be. My fallen angel, you are the most beautiful, most delicate creature I have ever known. I wish to hold you in my arms, to make all your pain go away, to return to you everything that you lost in your last relationship. To give you everything that you so desperately sought but was so rarely given. Others that have my affection openly are going to be pained by this, and they'll get very angry with me for saying this but I know you know who you are and you'll recognize this when you read it, if you ever have a chance to read it. I miss you, and hope to god that I can here from you soon.