What i'm about to write is probably going to piss a few people off, but i can't hold it in any more, I sincerely apologize, but I can't dictate my feelings, or where my heart goes. I've met a girl that I've absolutely fallen in love with, she is everything I never knew I wanted. She's beautiful, she's cute, she's smart, she's playfull, she's adventurous, she's kinky, she's a totaly freak (if you get what I mean), and she's absolutely enthralled with me, and as much as somtimes I wish it wasn't so, I'm enthralled with her. The more time I spend with her the less I want to be away from her, and she's managed to do something that no other girl has ever accomplished, she's become a part of me in ways that I can't even explain, I feel her coursing through my veins, I hear her whispering sweet nothings in the back of my mind even when she's not there, I constantly feel her gentle caress against my face, and most of all, I can feel her living within in the deepest recesses of my heart. Kelly, I'm sorry but not even you managed to accomplish the things that she has, and I'm sorry, I still love you, but not like I love her, we both feel like we were meant to be together before fate ever had a face, a form, a purpose, and when we're together everything else just ceases to exist, the day and night come and go just for us, the sun and moon rise and fall, just for us, the flowers bloom, the seasons change, and the entire world moves just for us. I'm happier now than I've ever been in my entire life, and I don't think anything could ever bring me down off this cloud. I'll see everyone soon, though unfortunately not as soon as I'd hoped because the army sucks, and I'm sorry to all of those I have ever loved, and who have ever loved me, but the wheel turns, the world moves on, hearts change, and life finds the oddest places to blume into it's most beautiful colors. That's about it for now, i'll write again later.