okay I havn't posted in a while. Mostly cause my computer locked up and I had to practicaly beg my dad to let me use his to type this. ((thanx dad if you for some reason read this.)) I'm soo tired. I just got back from the water park. My grandmal's work rented from 7- 8:30. It was AWSOME! I'm worried about Jill. If only she weren't soo damn busy. I'd have my dad take me to go pick her up. Cause well to be able to speak to her in person & to get her away from up there. That's me I want to save the world & I can't even help myself. I try not to think about S. It's getting easer. I try to think happy thoughts torwards her. I don't think she will ever forgive me. I miss her some times. Mostly how she can take eney thing that I don't understand and help it make sense. Basicaly her words. But, I try not to think about that. It just brings me down. :( I miss jill all so. At least I can speak to her. That's good. :)