Not Again . . . Please Please not today. Not here not now. I mean come on. I'v been faithfuly writing every thing down. I have been trying to type every thing else. Don't let the sysmptons keep up. Let my nervs calm down. I'm soo afraid. Not here. Please not at school. Maby if I stop figiting my nervs would die down. No, all that would do is build up the tension. Okay now take slow deep breaths. Not that fast! Calm down! If only I could get away & curl up in a ball & maby get some sleep. Maby if I talked to somebody. Ya right. I couldn't find the words to say. Nobody here understands. If only I could go away. It's time to get a crip. Reamber how last time Jill made you laught? Focuss on that. Think of what she would say to you. No now don't cry. Wipe your tears away & reamber what she Try to focuss. There you go. Every thing is going to be okay.