A few weeks ago I read over all my old entries. & man some of I was....stupid, and I was a senseless bitch. I mean man I'm lucky Jill even speaks to me. I'm gratful that she does. I mean if it weren't for talking to her nearly every day this summer. I probly would of sunken deeper into depression than I have. No it's not just cause of what I did way back when. Nope not at all. I'm not going into ENEY of that. I'm done with that over it past & I can only look forward to the futchure & hope I never screw up like that again. I hope I never hurt eney one else like I hurt ... I DON'T WANT to ride tHE BUs this year. NOT AT ALL. †