fuckers, fuckers, fuckers... FUCKERS, FUCKERS, FUCKERS... I feel much better after talkin to my mom...I swear, I feel like I've been carrying around a HEAVY ass load and now that I've talked about it, I feel better. It's not that easy when I'm around certain ppl, but I guess it's getting better. Brian was pissing me off in Algebra today though...I swear I was about to cry...Not that anybody noticed or cared but yea... It sucked ass. Chris was asking me about a problem and I was helpin him when Ian asked me to help him. So I was like hold on to Chris and I helped Ian real quick. So I turned back to Chris and was about to help him, when Brian comes up and he was asking if Ms. Shannon was grading the packets we were doing. So I was just like I dunno, ask her. And I was about to go back to helping Chris but Brian was like "But you're smart you should know." So I told him that I wasn't the teacher and that he should ask Ms. Shannon. So I turned back to Chris and all of a sudden Brian needs help with a problem too, so I was like Brian hold on. So then he just keeps goin, Erika, Erika, Erika, Erika, Erika I need help. So I'm like Brian I'ma kick your ass if you don't shut up and leave me alone. So he's like, "See if I ever help you try to skate backwards again" and i'm just like "oooo, I'm so sad." Then he started buggin me again, by now I'm like on the verge of tears that's how mad I am. And I throw Chris' packet at him and just like start cussin Brian out and he just kept askin for help. so I was just like, do you have your book...look it up. And he's just like, but why don't you help me. So I'm PISSED OFF AT THAT BITCH!!!! I soo hope he reads this too...GRR ARGH! ugh...I swear...ok, I'm ok now And I talked to Pilar about Evelyn's little poser phase and she agrees with me, that it's stupid and she shouldn't do it. I swear, ever since she started hanging out with Cristina she's become really different... Sorta like me hangin out with Kelley. My mom didn't/doesn't like me hangin out with her, cuz I've become really not caring and I've changed so much that it scares ME and I don't wanna be like. Which is why I've been saying that my life sux, but it's getting better. But yea...that's what I talked to mom about it and everyone agrees that I've been changing. Cuz yea...my mom thought that maybe I would be good for Kelley b-cuz of her sitch with her grandma, but then she said I started changing and that she had a problem with Kelley, but I dunno...I just wish she had told me...That's why my dad was yellin at me that one day and then Kelley said he was an ass or something...Kinda ironic...*sigh* Anyways...Erika's coming back...No more depression...No more shyness...No more my life sux...No more guys are pricks and stuff like that. I'm gonna care and I'm gonna bring my grades up, and I'm gonna make friends that I've started to lose. I'm gonna be happy, and I'm gonna have fun being happy, without having to help someone else have fun...I'ma worry about me and me only. I'm gonna be Erika, not what I think other ppl want me to be... I feel alot better now...I'm not really sure what I just wrote, but it musta been semi-important to me...*burden lifts*...I'ma go talk to Chris, Neil, and Ian...ttyl...luv yas...byesy