I kinda feel like crying... But I don't have anything to cry about anymore. I'm all cried out. Eduardo's moving, that sucks. And the part that sucks more is that I think I'm trying to distance myself from him so it won't hurt so much, but at the same time the fact that I don't get to talk to him as much kinda adds distance anyways. So yea, and now he's saying we're supposed to be having some kind of plans tomorrow, but yea... i don't see me getting away with that again. Plus the fact that I have to meet America at the mall tomorrow so I can get my phone back and my mom's saying I can't get a ride anywhere, so I dunno how anything is gonna work out tomorrow. I have a huge ass headache and I'm still reeling from dinner with my sis and my mom and I feel like throwing up and I'm kinda upset with Eduardo and really kinda not so I'm confused about that. I'm kinda sad about Cris and Evelyn and kinda not cuz I think they both need a little time for themselves, not neccessarily permanent but yea... And yea, my arm's fucked up cuz it keeps going numb for no reason and my head feels like it's about to explode so I'm not even gonna think about all this shit right now and I'm gonna go watch a movie and pretend everything's ok just like I've been doing all week. God, this sucks... It's like that line from Kelly Clarkson's song 'Behind These Hazel Eyes': Now all that's left of me, is what I pretend to be. So together, but so broken up inside. Yep, that's how I feel right now, especially since Teri thinks I'm avoiding her which really isn't true it's just that I don't have my phone so yea... I didn't know she's been trynna reach me or I would've called her back. But yea... GOD!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't take anymore bullshit too much longer, i really can't. What the fuck did I do to fucking deserve it?! That's all i wanna know... What the fuck did I do?! AGH... w/e, I'm goin now for real... "No one dies a virgin, life screws us all..." Huh... Ain't that the truth...