"Remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground. The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties. Mom was the girl you were gonna marry and dad was your hero. Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were who ran the fastest. War was a card game. The only drug you knew of was couqh medicine and wearing skirts didn't mean you were a slut. The only thinq you smoked was the tires on your bike. The only thinq that hurt was skinned knees and the only things that could get broken were your toys. Life was simple and care free. But what i remember the most was wanting to grow up." Beautifully quoted from my buddy Kelley. Awesomely cool. Anyways, today... Or technically yesterday since it is kinda 12:42 in the morning. But yea, anyways... I woke up like 7-ish, Simba had shit in my room, snarled at me, and got his ass locked in his cage for the rest of the day. Or at least til like 2-ish. But yea, the whole day I was just kinda bummin around the house, not really doin anything. Came online, no one was on, checked e-mails, surfed the web. Pretty much did everything the rest of my summer will be filled with. Except of course when I go to BALTIMORE!!! Yea, I'm kinda excited about that little detail. I get to go away for THREE WHOLE WEEKS!!! Yea, it's gonna be kinda awesome. Course I can really see me having a little breakdown like I did last time, but I'm not gonna think about that. OK, so at about 2:20-ish (hehe... I'm feeling -ishy right now so bear with me). But yea, Teri picked me up and I went with her to her job at Water Works. And yea, since she was my ride home I had to stay til like 9... Yes pm. So yea, we get there and we're waiting for her to see what she's scheduled for for the day or whatever and I see Chris. And yea... Surprise, and we were both like hi and yea... Interesting... So yea, Teri's like "ooooo, that's Chris, he's cute." And I was like "Yea OK...". So when Teri finally figured out what she was supposed to be doing, I went and found Chris and hung out with him for a bit. I felt bad though cuz I kinda chased his brother away. Cuz OK, Chris was there with his bro and like when I came over his brother just kinda left and was all by himself and I kept trynna go away so Chris could hang with him, but yea... Didn't really work out that way. And his brother is sooooooooooooo cute!!! He's like a mini Chris only cuter... lol Let's see, Chris left (after attempting to drown me like 5 times... no lie) and I was all by myself. So yea, I was hangin out with Teri at her little stations and yea... Wow, some kid almost drowned cuz of her... But anyways, after awhile she got in trouble for having me with her so I kinda wandered around for the next FOUR HOURS!!! Bored as shit and getting all cold and shit. Yea it kinda sucked. But, Yea I got to talk to Eduardo so that was cool. He was telling me about his new job, he ended up working like 10 hours and earned 80 dollars instead of the 64 he thought he was gonna get. So yea... yay for him. He's soooo paying next time we go to the movies... Let's see, anyways um... o yea, got home, Eduardo called asked if I wanted to come hang out with him and his friend. And yea, did that... wow... wow... That's all I can say at the moment. It's not a bad wow, just... wow. Yea, I'm really gonna miss him. Just... omg, I can't even think about it. I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo gonna cry the last time I see him. omg... I wanted to cry when I saw him tonight, but I figured that wouldn't be a good idea, plus I don't think his friend woulda been too comfortable with that. And yea... Neither would Eduardo. But I think he was kinda tipsy. Not drunk, but he was definitely feelin whatever he mixed with that Pepsi. And wow, "peer pressure, peer pressure, peer pressure, peer pressure." That was messed up, wow... Too bad it really just did not even work. But yea... *sigh*... I have so many feelings going through me right now, I just... I don't know. I wanna cry but I don't wanna cry, I wanna scream but I don't wanna scream. God, and he... He's... I really... MAN!!! I hate feeling like this. Why does he have to be moving? Why can't he just stay? I want him to stay, but I don't cuz I know he doesnt' like it here. I don't think he even realizes how serious this is for me, like... Yea... I dunno. I have some VERY VERY VERY VERY strong feelings for him, which is why I've been trying to keep myself busy so I don't think about it too much. But yea, I think my mom's worried about me always trying to go out. But, staying in this house just kinda drives me insanely crazy, cuz yea... I think too much when I'm alone. And I'm alone alot in this house. Alright, well my mom is coming upstairs soon so I should get off the comp. Night all...