I'm soooooooooo tired. FIVE MORE DAYS!!!!!! I don't really feel like I'll be missed much, but I'm sooooooooo excited!!! I haven't been to the B-more campus before, so it's gonna be completely new for me instead of just goin back to St. Mary's and knowing my way around and stuff. So yea, I'm excited. Didn't do much today. Started washing clothes so I could pack, then Nick and Anthony came over... They really weren't supposed to, so yea... That sucked but it was still fun I guess. I was kinda in a bad mood so I felt kinda bad and then my mom was just... Being my mom. I understand that she wants to get to know my friends and all that lovely stuff, but honestly... I don't think they came to talk to her. She just doesn't get it sometimes, she can be such a pain in the ass. I dunno, I appreciate that she cares, but sometimes I wish she wouldn't. Just a little bit. But I really don't see that happening. Almost snuck out with Eduardo last night... haha... More like this morning, I dunno it was about 1-2, one of those. But I was the good girl and told him it wasn't worth it and all that other bull. Then of course I stayed up about an hour or two after I hung up with him cuz I couldn't stop thinking about him. This sucks ass, and it's not fair, and he's mad that I'm leaving but there's nothing I can do about it. And I'm mad that he's mad, cuz technically he's the one that was leaving first, I didn't know I was going to B-more til after he found out he was definitely going back to Hawaii. So yea, even if I wasn't going, he would be leaving me. Plus he's always working so it's not like he would be able to see me anyways, right? I dunno, I'm screwed up in the head right now. I have stuff on my mind that I shouldn't and I know I shouldn't and yet I do and I don't know what to do about it. I can't call Evelyn cuz she's dealin with some stuff already, I can't call Teri cuz yea... It's Teri, I can't call Jennifer cuz she's in Florida and even if by some miracle she did answer her phone I doubt she'd actually listen to what I have to say anyways, I can't talk to Eduardo cuz he's... I dunno, I just can't talk to him he wouldn't really listen. This sucks ass, I hate being the friend everyone goes to when they have shit cuz I don't have anyone to go to cuz I know what everyone else is already goin through so I don't wanna dump my stuff on them. But at the same time I wanna be the person that everyone comes to cuz I like helpin ppl or at least giving them the relief of talking to someone. I dunno... I'm gonna go, I'm getting a headache, and yea... Eduardo's supposed to call, I dunno if I feel like talking to him right now though... A dream is a wish your heart makes... So what the fuck is a nightmare?