I said Goodbye to Eduardo today. Time to move on. It was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I love him so much, but... I can't do it anymore. I know I've been saying that forever, but this time I think it's really for real. I kinda miss him already... But I think I'll be fine. I'm still sending him his X-mas present... I know late-ness. But yea... I said I'd send it to him. It's like I've told him from the beginning. There's only so much I can take. And it feels like since he left he's been testing that. Well, the test is over. I've reached my limit. I can't sit around thinking, "maybe this time he'll choose me. maybe someday he'll come back for me." I can't take it. And Anthony definitely didn't make me feel any better. "so yea, he's saying that he can't reach you so it's not worth it to him, or at least that's wat I think, but see I know better he jus doesn't want to tell you he can't stand it" I kinda hate him right now. The last thing I want to hear is that Eduardo thinks I'm not worth. Cuz that's already how I feel so why the HELL would he say something like that. He says the worst possible thing at the best time. GOD I hate this. w/e... It's over... I'm moving on...