Im home agian. I saw him over the weekend. We spent 2 hours in the park just talking. It was raining. All i could think about is how much i wish things had worked out and how badly i wanted to kiss him. im so dumb. I worked today and yesterday. Its the first day Ive worked in over 4 months. i really liked it. But somehow i messed up my knee because i forgot my brace back at school. I have my check up tomorrow, too. OH NO! Ive spent a lot of time with the family. Its been fun. i think ive gained 5 pounds since being home. thats bad. but I'll be spending plenty of time in the gym when i get back to school. its like an addiction. I love being home but it seems like i didnt miss my friends from here as much as i thought i did. like i dont really care if i get to spend time with them. i did get to see them at church and i would love to spend time with Lauren and Brit. But Im missing my girls back at school, too. I feel so torn. This is nuts.