Quick side note... today is my 19th birthday. OK, somedday i will tell you what really went through my head. Someday I will just tell you that I was and still am scarred. but not just for us as a couple. i fear for your safety. it is not fair that i always worry if you are safe from yourself. i gave too much of myself to protect you and as just a friend i could easily protect you from yourself and give all of me to do so. But as your girlfriend it was a sudden overwhelming fear that all the blame would land on me if something happened. would it have been allmy fault if something happened to you?? I couldnt handle being responsible in that situation. i had to let you go. i had to let you live on your own. I was being sucked in to a world i wasnt strong enough to survive in. This doesnt even make sense to me, how could i ever explain it to you in a way you would understand...???