I'm not sure if I really do miss my friends here at home or if I am just holding on to the good times because i am too afraid to let go. i had a couple of my friends spend the night last week. We stayed up talking late and the friend i have known longer has not been herself in a long time. She is so quiet when we are together and she just doenst care about a lot. I think she might be depressed. Well, im almost positive she is. I email her a lot just to make sure shes doing ok. Shes coming to visit me at school in the spring. I love seeing her but i dont miss her. I dont think i do. i dont know why. I hate that she has been my best friend for so long and im ok without seeing her. i feel that way about everyone here at home. but i cant stop thinking about my friends at school. i want to be with them. i want to see him. I dont mean the boy here at home that i always talk about. ive been avoiding him a lot. it hurts to see him so i just dont. I hate this