so anyone who knows me well knows that I quickly became close to a guy, Nic, that I worked with at camp. Anyone who knows that story also knows that I have been stood up by him three times. The most recent time was about a month ago he promised to come see me at school and he never came and he never called! Until now. He just called me and I am such a girl because I didn't even get mad at him for not coming and not calling. We just talked about what is going on in our lives and it ended with the promise that he will call me agian tomorrow night. It also ended with him saying "goodnight, i love you" What the crap am i supposed to do about that? I think he might have been drunk. Im pretty sure he is drunk most often when he calls me. I am so flippin confused and when i hung up the phone i threw it agianst the wall and fell on my bed. it took everything inside of me to not punch a hole through the wall. i am so freaking ticked off yet at the same time i am so happy that he called me that i couldnt help but smile when i heard his voice. only two guys in my life have ever caused me to lose all rational thought in my head. the one guy i dated my senior year of high school and we had been best friends forever before that. but things didnt work out there and it still hurts to see him but thats a whole other story!!! Now Nic comes along and i couldnt help but fall in love with him. Im not saying by any means that I love him. those words can only come after a long time together. but i definately have feelings for him and i want to tell him so bad it hurts! but he keeps standing me up and then not calling and do i really deserve a guy like that? or do i deserve better? i like to think that i deserve better, but who knows??? BAH! Sometimes i just want to curl up in a corner and forget i exist! Today has been one of those days before he called and after he called i just didnt know what to do with life. I need to talk to Laura or Christy, or Emily, or Sami... or Kelli... any of my girls. Too bad they are in one dorm and i am in another and its past curfew. this blows! I want to cuss so bad!