Some friends gave me a makeover yesterday. They even died my hair. Not drastic color change... its just a little lighter. They put make up on me and all that. It was weird. i didnt even recognize myself. i didnt know i could look that good. But I dont want to look pretty anymore. Boys were checking me out and its not even like I was wearing slutty clothes or anything. At first it was fun but then boys starting hitting on me and then it wasnt so fun. I dont want to attract boys with my looks. I didnt want that boy to hold my hand or put his arm around me. hes not the one I want. I didnt want that boy to kiss me. I still have a broken heart. Theres nothing that will change that right now. Now Ive been hiding in my dorm all day because I dont want to see him. Hes just not the guy for me. Why is it that Ive never kissed the only guy ive ever truely cared about but I have kissed 2 boys that mean nithing to me.