alright... well this thing just pissed me off... i just wrote a great long entry, and it didn't work... but because i liked that one so much... i'm gonna do it again... alright so here it goes: hmm so some people think i'm a goth, they think i cut, and think about suicide, and don't care about anyone but myself, and that i hate the world, and that i will kick anyones ass who talks to me... but thats not true.. alright.. so i do like black alot, and i do cut.. i've tried to stop... but i just can't, i've done it for about a year and a half... and after a while i started doing it a few times a day in a row... and after a while, it starts to get addicting... but i'm trying to stop.. but i feel like theres a monster inside of me... always making me do it.. i did it yesterday even... but anyways.. and yeah i do think about suicide a bit.. but what teen or "goth" doesn't? i mean its just a way of life... and yeah alright so i do hate the world, but again, who doesn't? but i don't care about myslef, i only care about others, even if they aren't my friends, and i try to help anybody i can... i'm a kind of person.. who would give up a life time of happiness, just so my friends could be happy a little. cuz their happiness is the only thing that matters to me.. and i like to write poems, i've heard i'm pretty good, i don't really think so, but alright. and i like to read books, i dont seem the type to, but i do, i love books. i love just going away in the story... i especially like the harry potter books, since you can tell they aren't real, i like to imagine i'm in them, and that i have magic and everything. i prefer to go off into my own little world, than be in the real world, kind of like what my shirt says: i live in my own little world, but its ok... they know me here. haha i think its great. anyways, i finished this book my friend lent me "the perks of being a wallflower", a wallflower is somebody who sees something, keeps quiet about it, and undestands it. i wanna be a wallflower... a few of my friends said i was one.. but i doubt it. and one of my friends is gonna lend me the book "cut", i hope its good, it sounds good. hmm and i like anime, i like the movies and shows. but my favorite anime, is rurouni kenshin... i swear it is the best thing ever, i love kenshin... he's got such a great spirit... if you ever get a chance to watch it, you really should... anyways, i wish i was like him, one of my friends said i was.. but i doubt it... anyways, thats just a lil bout me and shit, if you would like to talk to me or whatever, you can IM me if you would like, my IM is: nomorefaith513 well i hope everybody has a good life... even those i don't kno.. and i hope things will get better for those of you who aren't having things go so well..