AHHH GOD FUCKIN DAMN IT!!! SO MUCH ANNOYING ASS SHIT. can't even fuckin think hardly!!! shit's goin on around everywhere. everyone's feelin like shit. cuz somethings wrong with them. but i don't kno what it is. cuz nobody even fuckin talks to me anymore. but i don't even fuckin care anymore. don't give any fuckin shit. i'm tired of fuckin caring. tired of trying to be good. tired of trying not to cut. but i don't want to. it's something i want to do for myself. but its so hard. looks like i'll have to figure everything out alone again.