feel so alone

by cutthepain
hmm, i don't really kno much of what to do. i feel so alone lately. i told one of my friends what i got my mom for mothers day, she was really happy, cuz i think she was kinda worried bout me. but also it sucks, cuz she told her dad, and her parents are divorced and so when she's at her dad's, he won't let her spend the nite with me, cuz she thinks we're gonna cut. hmm i'm glad i have long nails though, cuz then i can kind of dig them into my skin. soemtimes it will leave marks, but not much, so at least nobody can really see them and shit. and also, i have anti-depressants i'm sposed to take, but i never take them. i just save them all up, and maybe one day i'll think bout an overdose or something.. meh i've thought bout it alot before. i even have some tylenal and shit in my backpack. adn then i have alot of pills that are for headahces and to help you get to sleep, so i'll be ready if i want to. hmm well i'm gonna go outside and smoke now, cuz i really want one, so bye.
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That sux how your friends dad wont let your friend stay at yours..i tried to take a overdose once of pain killers..as you can see it didnt do shit..Although now there is a lock on the medicine cabnet..hope u feel a bit less lonely
p*r*o*b*l*e*m
I'm glad your going to try and stop cutting. I;ve tried stopping a million times and I have been doing it for 3 years now. I'm proboud of anyone who is able to stop. I tried to overdose once and I was in the psch ward for 3 days. I take anti depressants, yo should really try and take them because they might help. they didn't help me for the longest time until I got on a different brand. so you might want to try it, It might make you feel better.
[Anonymous]
please try the anti-depressents... they might not work, but you never know, when you do find the one that does work it will work wonders for you.
and ive tried so many times to stop cutting and i never managed it... but i would admire anyone that did manage it. gd luck!
xoxox
[Anonymous]
You've probably heard the same blah blah blah from everyone but I'll give it a shot, I was a cutter for years, until I realized that the pain wasn't only in me but also in every fuckin human being in the world, its only until we have hit the very bottom that we can truly appreciate anything....I feel for ya...but you will see if you hold on long enough...its all changes
[Anonymous]
well gud luck, and yeah...at least give them a shot if you get deperate.

xoxox
[Anonymous]
Yeah, it does suck. Meh i get over being watched, Hows your life youing on the whole cutting thing then? (If you don't mind me being nosy)

Joanna XxX
hmmm,why dont u take your pills?? u should they help..well for me
[Anonymous]
hey well i know how you feel i have been cutting since my mom started hitting me when we moved out. i dont know exactly how i started, but i cant stop. my parents have taken me to too many fucken shrinks, and the antidepressant shit is overrated. just take some xanax that solves everything... well just wanted to let ya know theres a lot of us out there, and i would like to talk to some more fellow cutters! not people who just pretend to care...
[Anonymous]
hi. im doing ok. getting by. blah blah

how are you?

thanks for saying you liked my diary

yours is pretty too.

um. i hope things get better for you. seem kinda down?
pills aren't all they are cracked up to be....I think you could quit cutting on your own and take the pills only when you feel ready to and want to.
But thats fuckin great that your stopping cutting, takes a lot of strength, rock on
[Anonymous]