things just really aren't all that great rite now. i would talk about it. but i don't have time. i will later tonite though. definaltely. cuz i gotta get this shit out. yesterday morning - things were going good. that afternoon - got shitty. later that nite - got shittier. this morning - still shitty. wow. is it just me or do you notice a pattern? i love how my friends just leave me. and betray me. after they said they would come with me. and i hate my mom. she makes me feel so damn guilty. i'm trying to change. i'm going to either give away, or throw away the rest of my cigarettes. and what's sad is, i've only smoked three of them. so theres alot i'm getting rid of. but i'm going to do it. i don't want to be like others. i'm going to be myself. be different.