eh, i've had alot on my mind. so lost. so confused. so much shit. blahh. things with friends. not so good. so fuckin closed to cutting last nite... but i didn't. god, that was so fuckin hard. i almost didn't make it. but i didn't. but i've started thinking about it alot more lately. i'm afraid i'm going to end up doing it soon. i can't. i don't want to. eh, i just hope i can make it... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- too many fuckin projects for skool. god damn it. i wanted to skip today. to work on hw. adn just time to myself. i need time. things are going by too fast. at least all the bad shit is. i just need time to think. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ it seems like the guy i like was everywhere i went. this morning, i was just sittin on the floor listening to music, and he was like, rite by me. then after my first period, i walk outside to go to pe and i see him out there. then i have two classes with him. then at lunch he came by and washed our tables. grrr. he's all around me. i think he's stalking me. hehe ya rite, i wish. lately he seems to be with girls alot. like in spanish, he was with girls. and in english, with girls. blahh. whatever. fuck it. not like i'll ever talk to him or any shit. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> so fuckin tired. need sleep. got hw. damn it.